Chapter 02: The Search for Love
I was born into the community. The phrase “I,” in this sense, may have a strange meaning for many of you. Most life forms have considered themselves to be individual units. But it was discovered that although many life forms perform the functions of continued life in many different ways, most of them are a group of life forms performing the many different tasks needed to live and preserve the race.
I personally am a human being. In the human race, to form
one individual, it takes two halves which are equal but different, which form
themselves into one entity. One male and one female.
When I had reached my thirteenth year, I started to feel
something strange. I was prepared for this to happen, but utterly unprepared
for the feelings that I felt. I suddenly felt a tremendous need not unlike the
need to join that I had when I was two particles of life. I felt terribly alone
for the second time in my life. I felt a need for something that was missing.
Of course, I knew what that something was, but I had no idea “who” it was. I
needed someone who would give me the true meaning of “I” and would end my
loneliness as I would end hers.
In my life, I had never encountered the woman that was my
other half. The one I would join with in body, mind, and spirit to form one
individual and make our life complete.
On that day, at the time that all life in the Mega-Universe
had agreed upon for all of those who were looking for their other parts, I
stretched out my mind in search of this person. I was trying to find the woman
who was my other half, but I had no idea where I would find her. I did know
that somewhere out there had to be a life form to whom I would join, love, and
make our life complete. On that first day, I stretched my mind out, and my
thoughts traveled through the whole Mega-Universe. At the speed of thought, I
was looking for that one being I could love beyond love of life to the love of
self, but I did not find her.
At first, I was crushed not having found the love of my
life, but soon I realized that at this time, my other half might not have
developed to a point where she was ready to search. I spent the next few months
searching every day, always hoping that this would be the day that this need
would be filled, my loneliness quenched, and my life made complete.
Fifteen months after I began my search, I had the good
fortune to meet the mind of Kak. I had to interview her about a story I was
working on. To me, she was the most wonderful woman in the Mega-Universe. At
first, I was sure that she was the one for me, but she had not yet begun her
search. She still had to grow before she would be ready to find me. So, I left
her to her own path and hoped that we would find each other one day. Each day
after that was horrible. The pain that this need caused was almost too much to
bear. I needed love to be whole, but nowhere in the Mega-Universe was there the
love I needed. Of course, there was love, but not from the one person who,
above all, would make my life complete and worth living.
Three months and two days after I began my search, my mind
reached out and touched Kak’s again. The joy at that touch was beyond any I
have ever known. It was love true as could be and a love that would last
forever. Our minds merged into a glorious union which is really impossible to
describe if you have never felt it. There is only one feeling like it in the
Mega-Universe, and that is the joy when my life began. From that moment, we
knew that our lives were meant to be intermingled. We knew that we had to be
with one another; it was inevitable.
I had found Kak, the loveliest life form in the
Mega-Universe. In this one life was all the beauty and intelligence that I
could ever need.
Kak came from a small planet where she worked as a research
assistant. Kak shared my interest in finding the truth. She was as much in love
with me as I was with her. Ever since the interview, she had admired me. Kak
often read my newspaper and loved the way I wrote about and saw life. She felt
that we had many shared interests in life.
We set about planning. Kak lived four universal planes from
mine. To get there from where I was, it would take fourteen years of travel, or
it would take Kak fourteen years to get to me. We knew that this would be
unfair to one of us to move to the other’s world because this would mean that
one of us would have the advantage of remaining on their own world, while the
other had to move out of their world and adjust to the customs and the people
of the new world alone.
We decided that we would both leave our separate worlds and
travel to a point that would approach the halfway point. Since we were both
living rather close to each other in physical space, we decided on a point that
would take seven years for each of us to reach. I traveled seven universal
planes, but Kak traveled only three.
During our long journey to our new home world, our minds
were almost never parted. Even experiencing the joy that she had felt, knowing
of her as only I could learn through her mind, did not prepare me for that
moment when we first met face to face. As it had always been with all life and
with her, the image of her own loveliness was distorted by her feelings towards
herself. This made these thoughts less than accurate.
As my ship came to birth and I stepped on the surface of my
new home world, I was met by a beautiful young woman with an infectious smile
that could light the heavens on fire as it had done to my heart. Her beautiful
blond hair formed a frame of gold surrounding her beautiful face. Her blue eyes
sparkled with an incredible depth and clarity which I had never seen before in
all the Mega-Universe.
She stood there clad in a sky blue dress with a necklace of
beautifully radiant stones, which enclosed her in an aura that took my breath
away. It was in this marvelous halo that we embraced for the first time.
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